[Solved] I don't know what is what or maybe I think too much
I've just had another of what I call weird "episode" where I felt a little dizzy. When that happens, I pray then ask for the message.
It took a while but the word death came to mind. Then I saw a rail road close to my parent's condo, but I think it is just an image I had to identify a rail road. I saw kim Jung Ill (?!?) just before his son Kim Jung Un. I felt like he is plotting to kill or had just killed the South Korean president. Then I saw my Mom, A vision I've had as a child came to mind. I also thought about a vision about my sister's family.
I thought about a premonition I had about my sister, her daughters and her partner a while back. She's loses the yougest little girl and her partner in a car accident. The oldest was hurt in the accident or is very ill. By the way, when I was at my sister's earlier this month, my brother in law told me one of her sister's friend told him he would die in a car accident. Makes you think.
The vision I've had since I was a child: My mother would die first (she just finished chemotherapy lung cancer), I would help my brother with a little girl (which is what I'm doing now with his 2 daughters). I would take care of my Dad. I would prepare my Dad and my brother for my own death, and I would be the 2nd to go.
I would like to concentrate on the light and have positive visions instead of all this loom and gloom! I don't know what is what. I feel completely detached from what I see happening to my family I don't know why but it may be better this way. Although I find myself very tensed lately.
Could this be I had many different visions come too fast and I'm too inexperienced to understand them. Or maybe it's because I have a very vivid imagination.
You are clearly going through a difficult time in your personal life, so it isn't strange that you feel detached and thinking about death a lot. It's probably your way of trying to cope. Try to make sure that you are getting enough sleep, and do whatever you need to do to help you get through the day. It could be listening to music that helps you feel better, or having some time in the day to sit down in silence, going for walks, exercising regularly, or telling a friend about your day. Whatever works for you.
About your visions of death, it's rare that a psychic can predict their own death clearly. It's a lot more common that people imagine it, but it doesn't happen the way they believed it would. Psychics are more likely to be correct about other people's deaths, though. So even if other people's deaths happen the way you saw them, don't take it as a sign that your visions about your own death are likely to be correct as well.
Thank you Maria. I usually am a positive person. I've had a lot vision when I was about to loose a close one from the time I was 9. I'm not afraid of death because of my faith. But you are right in saying I'm going through some tough times. It's been like that for the last 3 1/2 years. I guess it gets to you after a while. So unconsciously you develop coping mechanism.
However I would not dismiss the initial visions about the rail road and Kim Jung Un just yet. I think I may have mixed things up between the vision I had and the weird coping mechanisms I've developed. I'll work on changing those for more positive ones! So sleep, drinking lots of water, exercising and eating right is in order for me! I'll do more meditation/prayer and think about working the light around me and beyond.
Thank you for your input, it was very helpful for me to see this more clearly!
I understand your emotions so well, Sophie. I truly, truly hope that I don't have prophetic death abilities! I've had a lot of dreams about people or animals dying. I suspect it's my anxious subconscious doing some dreamlike healing work. My dreams can be very intense and strange but usually are easy to analyze for symbolic messages rather than prophetic.
I have never had them for myself except when ill or having had really bad experiences. Those were more like possibilities than a premonition although once in real-life I did have a doctor screaming at me about not fighting and just allowing myself to die that was a little scary!
I didn't die, I was psychically picking up and feeling the symptoms of my father 1,000 miles away (who was not telling anyone of how sick he felt) as he came very close to his gallbladder going into the deadly stage, before he passed out and was rushed to the ER.
I had passed out at home in Oregon and was taken to Urgent Care where I informed everyone I was feeling someone else. Far later I learned it was my dad all along.
But another time it was my heart and my Dr. made me get a full hospital workup on that one. The work up showed I was not only fine but my two lifelong heart murmurs had disappeared. That was a lovely discovery of miracles in action.
Both time's I was not afraid to die having my own strong beliefs about this life in contrast to other beliefs. But now, I am more invested in a long life for the sake of others, though ego does want more time for more experiences!
Know that you are always in my thoughts and prayers and the light of many guardian angels surround you. 💜
Thank you Michele. We have a gift and sometimes this gift affects us in unexpected ways. Whether we see it as a positive or a negative or simply an opportunity to learn, it is still a gift. For a long time I prayed to loose that gift, and I did close myself to it since I only saw negativity. But I've worked very hard on myself the past 10 years. I've taught myself that when I saw something negative before, I now see an opportunity to learn.
For the past year I've become more opened to my gift, and the more I open up to it, the better I feel. I feel like I'm contributing to something greater than myself and it's amazing! I believe everyone has their own special gift. I think I need to learn to somehow know the difference between my precognitions, my emotions, feelings and imagination.
Like Maria D White mentioned earlier, I've been living a lot of things with my family over the last 3-4 years. I think I need to learn to better handle this stress. As you know, taking better care of oneself on a physical, psychological and spiritual level is so important. Have you ever gone through the experience of feeling some else's illness again? To me it sounds like a event! But I bet you've learned to handle it.
When I hear about people going through the experience of inexplicably healing, it confirms to me that miracles happen. I'm glad your heart murmurs went away. Heart disease can be terrible and scary for the person having it and their family. My father has heart disease, so I understand
I don't know why but I feel I need to remind us the following old quote (I use it often): "When one door closes, and you stop staring at it, you'll find another one opened. If you can't see it, look for a window and break in!"
Michele and BrightOpal, you are describing the traits of empaths. It seems that we are all empaths here - Maria too. Somehow long ago we were given the mandate and the ability to connect with other people's pain when they need it, so we can help them.
But we can only do this successfully if we take care of ourselves first. I use to feel guilty when I needed to take time for myself. (So says Jeanne from the Canadian Rockies on a hiking vacay.)
I noticed a while back that when I have a client scheduled that morning, my dreams, thoughts, even the songs in my head end out being about that person. At other times, I notice that people will pop up in my mind out of nowhere when they are in need. Without realizing it we send out an SOS when we are hurting and someone picks it up and sends back some energy.
It can happen at any moment - awake or dreaming. Maybe I'm just feeling their pain, or their aloneness. Maybe all we need is for another person to hold us-- all of it happening subliminally.
Sometimes while out walking, I will find myself thinking of someone who has become lost in someway, and I even start talking to them even though they aren't present. Am I crazy? I'm certain they are getting some energy exchange. Later when they indeed reach out via email, text, or phone, I am not surprised.
I love how this world works. We are all helping each other. We only have to be sure to take care of ourselves.
Then I learned about recent discoveries that the largest trees in the forest, called grandmother trees, sense the needs of smaller trees, and send them nutrients and moisture to help them survive.
I now understood that this is what I'm doing. This is what you are all doing, what many of the lightworkers who come to this website are doing.
A famous medium of the seventies, Ellwood Babbit, told me in a 1984 reading (before I gave readings or thought of myself as a medium or psychic) that I had worked between my lives helping people who were transitioning to the other side. When I think of Bright Opal and Michele, and others who have the gift of sensing when people are dying, I wonder if you all also probably worked between lives helping people transition. And now in this life, you still are doing that work.
I was with my father when he was dying. It was awful because his heart was so weak that he couldn't pump fluids out of his lungs. He was drowning while I stood by helpless. I didn't know what I believed about the afterlife but at that moment, I heard myself crying out to him that his mother was there. "Grammy is here, Grammy is here! I said quickly and urgently. I just knew she was reaching out to him to take her hand. He passed soon after. I can only wonder how many beings were helping him pass.
Don't be afraid of this gift. It is how you are doing the work you were made to do. You do it in your sleep and when you are awake. Just allow it. But always take good care of yourself. Your well being must come first! Grandmother trees can only share because they have it to give.
Oh, Jeanne, that is such a beautiful post. I love this ongoing conversation so much. This week an old friend and I reconnected and we had the most amazing conversation. We rambled around our experiences over the years, reconnecting where we had left off and then veered into a discussion about our spirit guides. What’s surprising is that despite knowing each other for many years, we had never even discussed having guides. We had shared our intuitive experiences occasionally before, but obviously now we have expanded our consciousness journey in a similar way. It was an amazing connection and at one point, my friend began telling me the exact same things that you Jeanne had told me in a reading weeks ago. As our discussion progressed, we each had chills as different ideas resonated with us. We are all in the same forest, my friends Jeanne, Bright Opal, Michelle and Maria. We are the grandmother trees and we each have a deep knowing when our hearts connect, like roots entwined in the forest.
Yes,yes,yes,yes,yes! How it has always been and always felt.
When I first found this site I wasnt looking for any more to do or be or put my energies into. I had already spent decades doing the work I felt drawn to do. I knew who I was and what I was meant to do maybe not always how to do it in ways that didn't make me ill or feel more than I could bear pain as I connected with, and helped others.
But as I expressed in my first email to Jeanne after being accepted as a member here, was that felt like "family" and I'd known it instantly.
They say you can't choose your family, only your friends. Well, my lovely, ever growing family here has changed and expanded that concept exponentially!
I love the image of the grandmother trees helping out younger trees. Here on the coast, we have trees that intertwine their canopies and roots to 'band together' to help each other stand during hurricanes.
There have been many times I've meditated in an effort to try and acquaint myself with my guides. Each time, I'd get to a place where I should be able to meet them, and everything would go black. I'd return to from the blackness, knowing someone besides myself had been present, but there was no memory of what transpired. Only one time did I gain a glimpse of one of my guides. I took her for a Native American, but her face was so wrinkled I could very well be wrong about her earthly heritage. The fleeting glimpse I caught of her most reminded me of Grandmother Willow from Pocahontas. As I thought this, she gently smiled, as if to be grateful that I'd see her so 'at one' with nature, and that I could see our relationship as resembling that of Pocahontas and Grandmother Willow in the movie.
My family and I just walked through an ancient forest of cedar trees. We are in Glacier Park in British Columbia. These are the largest cedars I’ve ever seen, some of them 500 years old.
Their lives span the settling of the New World. They were seedlings when Columbus set sail for America, already a hundred years old when the pilgrims arrived in Plymouth. I felt like I was walking among gods.
Every living thing in the forest is interconnected. The trees keep on giving even after they die, providing shelter to bears and birds and food for insects and finally supplying the whole forest with nutrients when they crumble.
Research has found that trees know when forest fires are approaching. They warn Others. I wonder what they would say about the climate change and what wisdom they would give us.
Jeanne, I can see you and your family walking in that great big forest, relishing every minutes of it. Sometimes, when I touch a tree, I can feel its life vibrating. It is so energizing. Most specially when they are close to water, or close to trees who are close to the water. The circle of life...
Cindy, twice I have seen an old woman (inuit) looking at Prime Minister Trudeau while the water is rising and pushing on land. She's smiling as if to day, it's OK, you've done your best, this is the next era for human beings. I wonder if those women we saw have lived their own lives. Did they live when the Hopi elders received their prophecies, and are now guiding us. I like to think so. Maybe I'm romanticizing things...