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I’m glad you are on the mend, but so sorry to hear about your dear cat.  May he pass peacefully.  Much love to you.
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Thank you all. It was very peaceful. He was on the bed in our spare room, able to see trees, the sky, hear birds, feel the sun on his face. I petted him for about an hour before the vet came, and our other cat Tess (a reiki emitter), came up on the bed and laid nearby the whole time. He had his eyes open through the end, so I know I was the last thing he saw.
We should all be so lucky, to have only one day of suffering and die surrounded by loved ones and feel their love and mercy.
Your intuition is spot on. I've heard of meditation over-exertion in the Buddhist tradition; they call it lung (pronounced "loong"). I don't consider myself to be a master or very consistent meditator, but reading your post made me realize that I am pushing myself a bit too much lately when it comes to my mindfulness/visualizing practices. I've made advances I never could have imagined 4 months ago, so I think I can take things easier for a period. I like your mom's use of adoration in the Holy Presence, and I tried doing that today. It was cold but very sunny where I am, so I stood directly facing the sun for 10 or 15 minutes at a time throughout the day and just felt the warmth on my face, nothing more. Tomorrow is going to be a genuine Sabbath day for me. No chores, no errands, no writing. I'm going to walk around in the woods with "empty adoration" and then relax in my favorite local cafe.Â
The connections you've drawn between your bronchial issues and the emotional/spiritual dimensions of your life are brilliant. You're thinking like a shaman, accessing the physically healing powers of storytelling.Â
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i haven't been in the proper state to send healing energy to people or animals lately. So I'm glad that your most recent bout of bronchitis is clearing up and that Arlo passed peacefully and surrounded by so much love. You know, I've been thinking about Arlo these past few months and was hoping that he'd undergo a miracle transformation in which his cancer completely went away. But reading about how much longer he lived than expected and how much love he received right to the end, I think he was in the midst of a miracle.
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He was certainly not the first pet we've had to put down. I can honestly say that the at home euthanasia was the best choice (he always panicked on very short car rides to the vet). Going forward we're going to do our best to do this at home (we have 3 other pets, 2 of which are also not that well, but not terminal so far). And because he lived life to the fullest up until 36 hours ago, we had nicknamed him "Chanukkah Cat".
Had this particular cancer occurred anywhere else, like on a leg (more typical), we could have afforded to do surgery, but it was right on his forehead, and the thought of torturing him with multiple car rides to the specialty hospital for surgery, radiation and chemo, and to spend more than $10,000, we knew that was not the right choice for us.
I'm attaching his last pic, from right before the vet came. You can see Tess behind him, just standing by. (They were not related, but did come into our house on the same day at the same time in 2008.)
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Sweet, sweet sweet precious little ones. My heart continues to go out to those who loose loved ones and I must say losing a beloved pet is a huge trigger.
The magical energy between human and animal kingdoms are so amazingly unique and special.Â
I mourn my own losses still in my heart and love always the strange coincidences of how and when and even more importantly perhaps why they come into our lives when they do.
Definitely connected to all of the other magic out there in the messages of spirit and importance in our own little furry, feathered, finned or scaley animal totems and guides.
Blessings to you and all of yours Laura. ? and so so much love to you and little Arlo. You were both so very blessed to be so deeply loved. ???
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@laura-f, I am so sorry for your loss. Thank you for sharing Arlo’s beautiful picture with us.  What a furry, sweet ball of pure light! You were both blessed to travel this life road together.  I am sending you and your family comforting light and lots of love.
I would love some support and light. Two years ago I left an abusive husband- he has been watching our two girls in the morning but too many incidents have happened: most recently threatening my 6 year old he would hurt her if she didn’t do well on her spelling test. I am searching for a morning nanny to help us have a good start to our days as this was the last straw. Despite posting everywhere I’ve had no luck. So any light you could send our way is welcome and appreciated.
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 I’ve had to endure the deaths of over a dozen dogs and cats. We have spent thousands on some and have been trying to learn when to let go. It’s never easy.
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@jaidy  I will send energy your way.  And I want you to do some serious visualizing.Â
I had a serious nanny problem when my kids were toddlers. Â I went through about eight bad nanny situations, some really bad. I couldn't afford to just call an agency and pay those rates. Â I needed an affordable situation that was also the best for my kids.
So I began visualizing the perfect wonderful loving nanny for a 20 hours/wk sit. Â I visualizied with a lot of focus and at least once/day for about a week. Â Visualizing what I want has served me well. Â
A few weeks later I was taking my children to the local high school where they had a little daycare center for the high school kids to practice childcare, and I saw a girl on the steps who just caught my eye.  I asked her if she would babysit for  us every day after school.  I told her I needed her everyday, could not split the job among two kids,  because my 2 year old son (a Taurus) would not tolerate two different nannies. Â
She said she couldn't do it every day because high school kids are too busy with other things  but she had an identical twin sister who she could job share with. My son thought they were one person.  He loved his nanny twins. They were wonderful and have become life long friends.Â
I will send you energy, Â but do visualize your nanny --reliable, good for your kids, affordable, good for you.
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@laura F Â My heart aches for you, dear friend. Â It is so hard to go through a beloved pet's illness and death. He looks so beautiful. It has been seven months since I put down my fur baby and not a day goes by that I don't feel it and pray she knows how much we love and miss her. Â Your baby knows how much you loved him.Â
Thank you all, from the bottom of my heart. I am also grateful that his suffering in total was less than 36 hours. He was fine, until he wasn't.
And today's fun "woo-woo" fact: My prior marmalade cat was put to sleep on the same date in 2008 (Feb. 15), right before Arlo would have been born (May 2008). One of my spirit guides actually reminded me (yes, this guide knew both cats).
We're not going to replace Arlo for now, Tess is also not well and the vet bills are staggering. She turns 12 in April, hoping we can get her to at least 15 with good quality of life.
As for my cough, the antibiotics have kicked in and my asthma is greatly reduced already and I'm not having coughing fits.
I'm still recovering from this past overall crappy week, but I'm hoping to be able to meditate and return some love and light to you all soon. (Before Mercury retrograde fully kicks in, lol)
@jaidy, it sounds like it's been quite a challenging time for you. I really like Jeanne's visualization suggestion. I pray that you be divinely guided in your search for a nanny, and I'm holding you and your children in the light. Â